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In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “From You to You.”
Today’s assignment, write a letter to your 14 year old self, seemed easy, but on second thoughts I am not so sure. It certainly seemed the easiest option. There were so many choices: some that I thought I could do, and others that I thought I wouldn’t know where to start. Sometimes I think when there are too many choices, it’s very difficult to decide which option to go for. Better, when it’s either this or that really.
Dear Marie
Yes, you, come on now, try not to let things get you down too much. I promise life will get better. I know that you’ve had it really rough and I know that you wish your first suicide attempt at age 11 had worked, but it didn’t and that’s because you are here for a reason. I know that you can’t see that now, because all around you is chaos, but you are a divine spirit and you need to know that.
Try not to internalise the pain. I know that you feel that you have no-one to confide in, but you do. Speak to your grandfather. I know he is no longer here. I know he died in 1959, but his spirit is with you. Speak your pain and he will hear and he will try to smooth the path for you and make life a little easier. I know you’re thinking, “rubbish!” But seriously, he came to help you that painful night when you were 11. It was him you saw, when he hovvered over you. It was not a figment of your imagination. He came to make sure those pills did not work.
You’re destined for great things Marie. Look at Oprah Winfrey, Maya Angelou – they suffered too but look how they have turned their lives around. They have have used their abusive pasts to build a solid framework in which to change their lives for the better. OK, so you’re never going to be Oprah or Maya with their very public profile, but you will be Marie blogging on WordPress, “sharing, hoping to inspire and motivate” others.
I know you think I’m crazy, and that this will never happen. Yes at 14, with a mother who clearly finds you an irritation and a father who gets a kick out of battering you, sending you to school with bruises on your face and body, with the explanation “If they ask you what has happened to you, tell them that you fell over some wire in the backyard”, makes the above paragraph seem like the ramblings of a mad woman, but honestly, you will survive.
People that you don’t know now, will be reading your poetry and will write to you telling you how much they love what you have written. People all over the world in France, Austria, USA, Australia will be commenting on your poetry.
There will be something called the Internet which will allow you to connect with others in a way that you can’t now. The world will be a smaller place in terms of contact and there will be vast opportunities for you to grasp and take advantage of.
I love you Marie and I want to take care of you in the only way I can. This is why I am writing to you, aged 14. I want to give you hope. I want to let you know that I am there for you.
Yours sincerely
(A much older)Marie xx
What a beautiful letter to yourself Marie. You are here for a reason and an inspiration to others. I enjoy reading your entries and poems.
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Thank you so much Tammi. You have been such a support in recent days. So glad our paths crossed on this WordPress journey!
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Awesome, this entire blog has grown quickly into an enormous womb of love
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Oh thank you so much! Your kind words are much appreciated. I haven’t been on here for a while, so apologies for the late response and a huge thanks for ALL the likes!
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you have remembered your talent, thats why it was so easy to share my words. Its a really courageous blog you have. Already you are shifting and transforming. We love your passion. So glad you are blogging. It’s part of your path of opening up to your amazing recovered beauty.
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My goodness! What a wonderful thing to say, to someone who really needs validation right now. I am so blown away that I am speechless! A thousand thank you’s. I only hope that I can continue to do your words justice.
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That letter was one of the saddest, yet most joyous things I have ever read. Sad, to try to feel the pain of that child who tried to kill herself (something I can certainly relate to); sad, to be reminded of the indifference and cruelty that people are capable of – even parents; but joyous, to see your hope and your strength come through. May God bless you and guide you. Thanks for visiting my blog and enabling me to discover yours.
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Thank you so much for your compassion. Your empathy touches my heart. Such pain never goes away, but I have learned to live with it and to use my blog as a form of therapy. I continually ask God to bless and guide me, which He does. I wish the same for you, and thanks again for your empathy which means so much to me.
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Beautiful and moving, Marie.
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This is amazing. And, it inspired me to write a letter to my 14 yo self, which was a painful one to write, but I think it needed to be done. When I post it, I am linking up to you.
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I am delighted to have been an inspiration to you, JD. Thank you so much for making my day!
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Thank you so much JD for linking this to me and for being inspired. I am so happy that my words have enabled you to address a very painful part of your own life and I hope this is healing for you.
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I really found this to be emotional. I choked up a bit at thinking of myself at 14 and who I am now and where I am now. This was an interesting concept. I wouldn’t even know where to begin. Was it painful for you or a catharsis?
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Kathy, thank you for letting me know how this affected you. I hope that you are feeling much better about yourself now that you can look back at your 14 year old self and see how far you have come.
Life has been a real struggle for me, but I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel. I sincerely hope that if you have not seen your own light, that in time this will be your experience too.
This was both painful and cathartic for me to write – can writing about childhood pain ever be otherwise? But thankfully I am no longer in that place and I can say hand on heart – these things do pass and life can get a whole lot better. If you ever want to ask me anything else, feel free to email me or ask me here. 🙂
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What I really like about your writing is the honesty, it’s brutal and raw, but beautiful. It’s inspiring how you were able to rise and find that light. You overcame obstacles and adversities, which I will never know.
Everyone has their crosses to bear and memories that are painful, it is how we choose to deal with them, and what you do is give hope, and purpose. I respect you for being you, you would not be who you are, had you not had those experiences, heart-wrenching as they were. Thank you so much for the support and just for being you. I know the world is enriched by your presence in it. Your strength is a true gift. It’s too bad that there aren’t more people as gracious as you, and I thank you for your friendship.
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Kathy, I don’t think you will ever know how much your sincere and encouraging words mean to me. Thank you for taking the time to write them and for making me feel that others benefit from what I have to say – that makes me very happy.
Thank you too for your friendship dear Kathy. ❤
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Marie, the feeling and respect are mutual. It’s more than clear that you are a warm and caring human being. Your words do have an effect on readers. They had one on me and gave me some perspective and grounding to my own history. It has helped me heal, and have the courage to go forward without looking behind with bitterness and anger.
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Your words mean more to me than you will ever know, Kathy. Thank you so much.❤
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Thank you, you made my day, I’m sorry, night. Hope we can meet someday.
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That would be lovely Kathy. Many of your comments have made my day too and brought a tear to my eye …:)
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